Bridge Under the Water

What if I don’t want to go back?

Photo by Spencer Scott Pugh on Unsplash

the bridge is under waters
surging and torn
there’s a great divide
and i can’t go back

was this storm’s force finally too much
unrecoverable
because i’d suffered so long
i nearly drown
had to save myself

i’ve long been in the business
of rebuilding bridges
hopelessly trying to keep them intact
even swinging over on a rope
if i could

though didn’t i actually hate being over there
expectations strong to get along
it wasn’t usually pleasant
it wasn’t nice
somehow i believed i had to try
even to my own demise

finally i realized
i didn’t cause the storms
they really didn’t care
about all i had done
they merely demanded
i keep it intact

after some time
i am at peace
they are on their side
and i am not