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Christine
you are loved beyond what you can see
did he love you
do you still love him
did he snuff out your life
while your existence here drags on
you got caught in the undertow
the current that pulls you farther and farther out
you’re not fighting though
how is it that betrayal decades ago
became the ending of your beautiful life
is he the only thing that gave you a will to live
did you build it all on the premise of this one foundation
you are one of the ones to not move on
even after the bull has thrown you off
gripping its carcass with your cold dead bones
a brand of suicide more suffocating than an end to it
you are languishing
destroying yourself
how can you not try to recover
pull yourself out of the nose dive
you've built a fucking fortress
imprisoned yourself
within the idea of what you need that dream to be
you are clinging to a ghostly corpse
demanding he come back to life
