Did I Encounter the Soul of Vladimir Lenin in the Serenity Garden?

He came at us hissing and ready to strike

It was what he said. It was how he said it. But at a much greater depth I felt a searing darkness emanating from him. I have experienced this same oppressive treatment thousands of times from my experiences with toxic and abusive people.

It is not a voice alone but a presence. A chilling presence of evil resides within. It was the way he was able to completely demean me and plunge me into a depth of shame that I have not been able to purge from my system, even after several days.

I felt it deeply.

My daughter and I had just minutes before, been talking about breaking out of fear, shame and pain. I had been talking about reprogramming my mind. I have realized how many negative thought patterns govern my outlook. And I have a mental picture that I have been in fetal position, bracing myself for the next painful thing that could happen.

That is when he came at us. He was stinging and toxic in a moderated tone, but his cold, vile eviscerating words and aggressiveness stunned me. He made his point but would not stop his oppressive onslaught and interrogation. He treated us like were guilty of some crime that had been committed against him of the most personal nature.