He said “I Needed That” after Sex
It was another way to devalue me.
Sex with my ex.
I know- it rhymes. But this was during the marriage. Sex did not happed after I got away from him. And the percentage of “the act” per time married is very low.
The entirety of the subject is much more complex. I didn’t see through his schemes at the time. I can look at it now and see how I felt. I was alone and isolated, by his design. Who would I talk to? Getting the truth out and into the light of day could have helped me. But since I was surrounded by Christians, they pushed me back towards my toxic husband and into the abuse. I was essentially drowning. They caused immeasurable destruction and pain.
It is difficult to comprehend the sadistic nature of a person in your own house.
The rule is: It is extremely difficult to see clearly or understand what the behaviors are when you are in relational proximity to a person. I call it the force field. You are pulled into the gravity of it.
That the person that convinced you they cared so much- could take great pleasure in hurting you, is too difficult to comprehend. He promised to love and cherish me. It was not easy for me to trust. I opened myself, heart and soul, in the most vulnerable and intimate ways. It is dangerous to let someone in, who’s real…
