Hello Kitanya: This resonates deeply for me! Familial and societal pressure grinds me down and boundaries are not respected. It is painful. It is amazing to connect with another with the same health issue. I am surprised that I am still alive. I understand the depths of hopelessness, fear and utter lack of control. There is so much more detail. Also, I believe that the intensely traumatic pain from the toxic people/relationships around me caused all of my health issues and crisis. The pain was all repressed because I had nowhere to go with it. I don't know if I am okay. But a lot of my health issues are subsiding as I have gotten away from the toxic ones. I am grateful for your vulnerability in sharing. It means so much to me to know that you understand my experience. I am certain that is true for others too. It is terrifying and unbearable to be alone and afraid. If connecting further is ever something that would benefit you, I am willing. I am happy you are back.