I see you ❤️(acknowledge your experience). I am a first born daughter. I have observed since I was young how the firstborn kids in my family were treated fiercely and the next got nothing. Religious programming is very toxic and abusive too. It is in my dysfunctional family. The past few years I have had to go no contact with family (now all of them) to save myself. I tried but they would never see me as a person with autonomy and value (except for how I served the system). It was a system they needed to remain the same and control. I was never permitted to break out of the mold. I can see it as part of my awakening and healing. It's a gateway to learning fierce love for ourselves! ❤️