So they were pleased to take your money. But not one person cared enough about you to value you as a person or inquire about your curiosity? They see you as one drop of poison that could threaten their entire ocean ecosystem. This does not demonstrate Christian values or stability in their foundation of beliefs.

I grew up in abuse and the man I married is a toxic abuser. Christians /the church ignored and enabled the abuse. Christian counselors would not acknowledge my husband's behavior or call it abuse. They pushed me back into the abuse; instructed me to love him more, "teach him" how to act, be a better wife; fix myself, suffer and follow God better. Divorce was forbidden. I was told that I would lose my witness for Christ. I believed people would go to hell if I left my husband. The intensity of my experience nearly destroyed me and I didn't think I would survive. I had to lose everyone I knew to try to get away from my husband and go through a divorce process and survive. And I did it alone. After a lifetime of giving and sacrificing for God and the Church, I was alone. But more than that, Christians treated my kids and I horribly when we were afraid, reaching out for help and trying to find a place to live.

What I found, during this time, was Jon Steingard's social media post about his "curiosity" and then his videos with his friend talking about his deconstruction. I would recommend also reading and following Jonathan Poletti on this platform. His work is mind blowing, especially when you have been immersed in Christianity.

I celebrate your curiosity and resilience. This journey on the outside (of the walls of Christianity) is a whole new world. Welcome to a new adventure.