Tailspin

Darkness wraps his cold eager arms around me.

Photo by Marco Tjokro on Unsplash

how long do i hold on
much too long
i lost my grip
or was it good to let go

why do i try so hard
why do i believe
tell me
is it naive

is all i see
a dream
just a moment away
or an illusion i create

why do some shine like jewels
rise to the top
reach magnificent heights
while i am from the bottom
looking up

why am i stuck
feeling depleted
and crushed
steeped in doubt
that i could hope
for anything else

all the principles
concepts
believing i have power
i am strong

what do i manifest
where is my song
where is my freedom
where is love