This is powerfully revealing. It is very good that I am deconstructing so many things in my life. It still stings. You say, he seemed to you a total fraud. It is disturbing to me that I haven't seen these things. And I am searching to understand the reasons why. I did not know that he is racist or condemning LGBTQ. Though now I do not find this surprising.

It is the calm, gentle exterior that I have judged as being genuine. I am finding that these types of people are often as toxic as others that are more overt.

I am unravelling my entire grid and all of my relationships. I feel betrayed and angry for all of the deception.

I needed to believe that there is goodness, honesty and genuine people in this world. Still I am grateful for your work. I see it as crucial.

I began researching Charles Stanley when I escaped from my abusive ex. I was searching and reading about his wife, marriage, divorce and the rifts with his son and within the church. The common denominator seems so obvious. So it seems that I did have doubts about him. If I was going to be divorced and condemned for it, I was compelled to see the truth about him.