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Twelve Things I Would Rather do than Step into the Dating Pool
Even the idea is repulsive to me.
The idea of dating is repulsive to me. No, not dating someone that is lovely, warm and genuinely attractive in many ways. I mean jumping into the dating pool. I feel nauseous thinking about it. Pools are disgusting. I took a scuba diving class at a YMCA. I can never purge from my memories what I saw so clearly through a scuba mask as I explored all of the depths and areas of that pool. I will spare sharing with you the foulness and things that I saw in there. I have not wanted to swim in a pool since. That is exactly how I feel about dating.
Yes, I did survive a dysfunctional relationship and the divorce process rather recently. I still don’t feel free or single. But, I have been digging out from some major tasks. It’s a feeling that, “after this goal or that, then I will feel free”.
My life is my normal. If it was anyone else’s life, I would say it has been hellishly horrible. But my attitudes about dating are very much like they were when I was in school. I don’t think it is worth the effort. By it I mean spending my time with people I don’t want to and don’t like, with the hope of connecting with one that I would wish to spend time with. I am not willing to endure a thousand cringe-y moments or even one hundred or ten for one that is potentially good…
