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“You Just Want To Bring Up The Past”
Whatever it takes to shut you down and shut you up
Have you ever felt exasperated when trying to approach someone with an issue that needed resolved? Have you ever felt that you were the only one trying in a relationship?
I spent my time and money going to counseling. Marriage was painful. He didn’t go, except once or twice. The church funneled people into counseling. The ex-husband even encouraged me to go. Because of course he suggested that I had serious issues that I needed to deal with. Christian counselors instructed me on how to work on myself, my marriage, how to be a better wife, love my husband more and learn what he likes and how to please him.
They didn’t care how hard I was trying already. They didn’t care how much I was exhausting and spending myself.
His emotional axe
I was told that I needed to move toward conflict. And each time I tried, I received some form of harsh blast from my husband. Bazooka is the word I used for how he was wounding me.
He would do whatever it took to hurt me and prevent me from moving toward him. He would throw out angry blame and accusation and quite often told me, “You are just trying to bring up the past.”
